Is it me??

The feeling is the same... Every time around...

When you start feeling like you're there...

It is the world that moves... the shaking ground...

If only sometimes you knew why things happened...

If only sometimes we could do things so...

So that a new phase of life gets started and you know...

Or at least think you know where to go!

Why does it take so long...

Why does the world seem so wrong...

All one really wants is to be happy and be able to share the same with someone...

I have it all here by the looks of things...

Nothing to be afraid of...

Nothing to want more...

It all seems just right...

And yet it doesn't feel so....

How do I know when I'm happy? How do I know when I think its okay...

Is life just a big fat lie, so is it a mountain of hay?

I try so hard to say its okay...

I try so hard to feel that way...

What is it that makes me wonder so much...

What is it that keeps me here...

Why was it that I came back...

Why was it that I lost track...

Some answers I will never get...

But a life that I need to set...

Lord give me the strenghth to be myself...

Give my the will to find my own...

Help me make me and make my happy...

That's all I ask for in a small sort of way...

With all the love around me...

With all the love that surrounds me...

With all the love that I have to give...

Happiness is a small ball of string that I need to play with...

Habby Habby Habby!

Its all about you...
Come to think of it... Everything one does is to be able be happy and do something to stay happy :) Its all in our minds... We choose to be happy or to be sad... Emotions have a way of getting out... at times we want or not... Either way we need to be able to keep ourselves happy at most of the times... It is like what the doctor I met on flight said, we choose to be upset or sad. Being sad or depressed is a waste of soo much energy and no one should bother about it!!
On that note... my happy self is off for a holiday with the boys to TAsmania!!! :)
Its been a while since I've been upto something like this!! Hurraaahhh!!!

A new phase...

I look back and it bleeds...
I think of anything, and it bleeds...
It's a new phase in life I guess... It needs to bleed...
Bleed out the bad and bring in the good...
Whoever said this would be easy?
Whoever told you this is what it was meant to be...
It's things in life that teach us what and how and when and where and the most important one, WHY...
We need the answer to these...
Or else we bleed...
Sitting here at night, away from any sleep...
All I can feel is that bleed...
I need to be able to keep my focus right...
But the lack of blood makes me dizzy... and all I feel is the bleed...

I don't mean to sound grey... But I know it comes through...
I need strength to see this through...
As many of you knew...
It wasn't I who was the fool it was he...
It is not my loss but it is yours...
Just hope its not too late before you see it...
Once I leave I'm gone... It's time for me to take life head on...
Its time for me to see a new phase...
If not with you then with someone who'll go through the maze...
The maze of life with me as you see...
Standing there by my side through it all...

To new starts!

Just crossing that time of the year again where you feel just a little bit more responsible and older :) Its the time that makes you look back at no matter how many years we've lived. Think through the good times and the bad :) think of all the people who've been by you through thick and thin and the people you've been around as well... It is a wonderful feeling. Growing up and living life and knowing it !!!

The one thing that I think we start seeing at different stages in our life, is how we are changing and how that is affecting the situation and the people around us. How the new phases in life make us change and start thinking in a new direction... we see things under a different light all of a sudden. We change, our wants changes, our needs change, our circumstances change... and this keeps happening throughout our lives. First its all about us, then its about our jobs and careers, then its about us setelling down, then its about having children, then its about the children and this journey goes on and on... Anyway, to cut a long story short. I'm loving the way life is turning out. A sudden realization of my shift in phase is on. Its a whole new phase of life and a whole new chapter. I love all the people in my life so far... Good and bad... I thank them for what they've given to me or taught me and here's to soo many more coming along :)

A special mention in my heart and prayers goes to a few people in my life (old and new) who showed me change and taught me so much. Things to do in life, things to avoid and just how to never forget to be me :) !!!!! Gaurav, Piyal, Vishaal, Himanshu, Shrey, Githanjali, Boogie, and Abhinav. There are so many things I've taken and learnt and understood all because of my interaction with these people! :) I'm grateful to have them all in my life!

Too much for one day, its time to go to work :) Here's to the people who made a difference and here's to the next new chapter in my life.

My favorite things song! MY WAY :D

Bright early mornings and breakfast with friends...
Short gossip sessions and long laughing trends...
Good times spent, laughing and singing and things...
These are a few of my favourite things!!!! :D

Big picture collages and broad black frames...
My doggy ruffles and no aches and pains...
Eating rasgullas and catching up with friends...
Are the things that keep me sane and in sense! :D

As you can see I'm in a mood to be silly...
After a long day at work, now I'm in bed...
This is the time I take it all outta my brain...
The thoughts to be able to sleep better again!!!! :D

PS: Please sing this in tune to "my favourite things" from the movie the sound of music... hehe this is my in my sily element! :)

It's been a while!

Welcome to 2009! :)
I've been rather quiet lately and I think this is one of the things I need to get back to... slowly but surely... I know its going to be harder than before, but I'm sure I'll manage it somehow...

2009 has been just perfect so far (small things that bother one always stay there... reality check) but other than that I've been having a great time. I've managed to keep myself busy through work and friends... Keeps my mind away from being idle and thinking about things that I don't need to be thinking about. The other thing I have noticed is that people can't seem to see you happy. There must be something going on for one person to be happy! Why so?? :) ANyhow... It's okay, as long as I don't let things bother me, to each his own!

With all the joy and happiness around I'm doing well for 2009 I think. Time flies, January has already come to an end... Some things are just rushing :) Some things seem to be taking their time! :) There are times that bring you at crossroads (mostly for me, its the case when it comes to men! and my decisions about them!lol...), there are times you're careless but most of all I've realised that's its important to be happy at all times. No matter what, no matter when! Let the world go to hell... Till the time you're happy, everything around you is okay. (even if it isn't the way you want it to be!) Let me take the example of men! (my fav topic lately.. hahahaha) When you're bloody open and honest and interested, no one seems to have the balls enough to do anything about it (excuse the balls!). For men its all about it being a game. I used to let all these things/games bother me till I realised it all doens't matter! Be happy about life, be my happy normal self and NEVER let anything bog me down. I deserve better than being upset about others for heaven's ! The issue is the minute someone starts doing that the others seem to find a hole in their lives.. hahahaha LOL! All of a sudden they wake up! God help me...

Anyway, cutting a long story short... This is the year to be happy for me. I'm not going to let anything bog me down. Whether its people, the things they say, do or whatever. Going with the flow is the best thing to do, no expectations and being open to everything new! :)

Here's to a great 2-0-0-9!! Love and good wishes to all! :)

Blue Lou

BlUe LoU ... It's You...

You came into my life how and when I didn't know. You stayed and made me feel so good. Life was comfortable, stable, secure and peaceful and you brought this to me by just being there and being you. Your smile what just what I needed, your hand on my shoulder made me feel I could do what I wanted and know you're there right behind me. Your hug made me sure that the world was a great place and I knew I was happy and safe.
You left and the world shook from under my feet. You took with you the light and joy and comfort and security and peace. It was time to wake up and smell the coffee and you brought the coffee to me!

BlUe LoU... The REAL you..

You still love me like I love you,
You're still the one I sleep hugging,
You make me feel like its all how it should be,
You're still the same as you were the first day I met you,
You're still the only one who has the pleasure of being in my company every night! ;)

I miss you BLue LoU....

If I...

If my eyes don't open tomorrow...
... Will you stop fighting?
... Will be calm?
... Will you stop bothering about the insignificant things???

If my eyes don't open tomorrow...
... Will you miss me?
... Will you wonder, "what if?"
... Will you wish you'd make it different?

If my eyes don't open tomorrow...
... Will you care more than just that moment?
... Will you think it was real?
... Will you wish our dreams came true?

If my eyes don't open tomorrow...
... Will you remember you read this?
... Will it make your hair stand?
... Will you think, "Shit, did she know this was coming?"
... Will you wish you told me you loved me?
... Will you wish I would have never gone?
... Will you wish you didn't miss me so?

Why wait till my eyes don't open...
Don't call me crazy for being expressive...
I just like to make sure the world knows...!
Life is too short for worries and carrying baggage.
Its too short for letting go...
Think... of what all is around you...
See where you want to be...
Do what you want to do... and pray to god to give you all the strength to endure all you have to in life..!

... More

I look back at times...
I look at time today....
All I can say,
is that I want more.

My friends,
The ones I love,
The ones I miss...
And now I miss more.

I see you,
Think of you,
Love you,
Miss you even more.

We're all in each others lives for a reason,
We need not know why,
I'm ignorant to that question,
As, you in my life I want more...

I'm on one of those moods as you can see today. You are all people who come to mind when I wrote this on my blog today, so I thought I must tag you so you know... :)
You're being thought of by someone far away!! :) Specials smiles and moments... that once made my day.
Lots of love to you all and missings ofcourse!

ThE nEw AiRtEl AdS!

Call me a sucker for mush....
The new Airtel ads just get to me in less than a second! Vidya Balan and Madhavan. What a phenomenal pair. And them being romantic over that! Makes everyone want their other half to be exactly like that! Over and above that, the crush I had on Madhavan as a girl doesn't help! The man smiles and I'm floored! Then, there he goes being the most romantic, head over heels in love man. Gosh I wish I had that! :)
Don't we all! Its funny how I am getting sick and tired of this we have a guy, we don't! Its what I want... or oohh ohh nope it ain't! I think its just better to be living in the world of fantasy. Its much easier and workable!
Anyway, back to the reason for writing. The cuteness of the ads, the hubby not leaving cause he's going to miss the wife. The hubby calling soo many times cause he misses her and calling to say good night! Anyone else in those ads would not have done justice to it the way these two do...
Not really relevant but I do love these ads. And they are soo worth the mention :)