When will the gussa get thanda?

Acha ok... So I kinda messed up without thinking that I did.
I did apologize for it.
So how long does it take for the gussa to get thanda... You can't just throw away years of friendship over one deal! That's why its a good friendship isn't it??

What must I do to make it all good again. It is alright I know that... and I know this is not going anywhere.. I wont let it. But when do I start to get back in touch with how things arE??

You know who you are... you need to you maaf karo me yaar!! :)
Woh movie thi na... " Dil par mat le yaar"

I miss you paaji! :)
Hope to hear from you soooonnn!
x

What Is IT?

You know you think you know what's going on in your life... but then sometimes you look around and you don't!

I thought I knew what I wanted all my life... which I did most of it... but now I'm standing somewhere in my life... where I thought I wanted something... and now I see things that I want to do other than what my plans had in store for me.

Making a career change doesn't only involve me. That's the only issue. My decision in life are based on a lot of other things as well. The people I love are a very very important part of my decisions! Why is it that everything else affects the decision one has to make. At the end of the day its one person's life and its what they have to do. The decisions one makes should revolve around them and they have to live with their choices...! Why should it affect others...??
There is no point in asking why. At the end of the day, IT DOES affect others and it does matter.

We have been brought up to be considerate to others. When that's not an important part of one's upbringing we can do anything not caring about the others. But when we do know and think of others these decisions become very very hard. Its not easy to be thinking of what we want without thinking of others!
WE need to be very careful of how we do things and make our decisions. Some of our decisions do end up hurting some, but there are somethings that we have to do.
Its not the best place to be in. It's so hard to be caught in the middle of your mind and your heart! Who do you listen to...??

I am soo confused at times as to what I want in life. All because of outer influences... When will the time come for me to just make that choice! Any choice without thinking of otherS! Or just being able to be ok with my choice without outer influenceS!

Anyone have any clues?

Happy ...

You know I have realised one thing.
Its when we are sad and upset that we sit and think about what our life is.. how we do things.. what we do and why....
Its only then we give things attention and remember the good times...
But no one really acknowledges when they are actually happy!
We never think twice and thank our stars for the good time that we are having.
We all need to realise that we have to seriously start to consciously realise our happy times!
WE do have a lot of them in our lives. We just choose to not think of it when we are happy and having a good time!
I am having a blast of a time... and no matter what comes up.. I'm happy! There is nothing more I want from life. I have a good life, a great family, and some fantastic friends!
I am grateful each day for this!
Just thoughts which I wanted to pen down! So there! :D

On My Way....

A good hour and a half before landing, the energy seemed to be creeping in. I was up walking the isle. I was having the best time since I left Delhi. Easy check in, pleasant staff and the attention from the good looking people! The last point, I believe is all thanks to my fantastic mood and chirpiness.

Slept through my flight from Delhi to Singapore. I had a quick stop over (2 hours or so) at the Singapore airport and then I was off to Sydney! Australia and New Zealand are places I've always wanted to visit but never saw it actually happening! Well it was all real now. Still doesn't feel like its true though!! So back to being on the flight. Had been talking to the cute flight attendant, had the hottest guy on the flight come and chat to me, what more did I want ;)
20 minutes before landing one could make out its my first time to Sydney! Peeping out the window as though I was gonna make my way out of that window any second! Smiling for no obvious reason :D
Landing at Sydney was a fantastic feeling! Walked out, through the immigrations and to the baggage claim. From the walk that I took till outside, I felt like that people were very warm. Unlike UK and elsewhere where one feels that the people are cold. Or the CITY is cold even!

Baggage took forever to come. I even had a little beagle dog come and sniff my laptop bag at the time. Even had to flirt with the customs guy to get the extra cigs and khatta meetha packet! (bag of salties!) {kidding}
Walking out I felt like I was walking on air! I've been in the best mood EVER!
:D
See what a vacation does to you!! :)

Came out and recognized my aunt and uncle in a second! AND to my surprise they recognized me just as fast! They said its because I'm an exact image of my mother. Copy! :) The last they saw me was about 10 years ago if not more!
All four of them came to the airport to get me! Waayy past the kids bedtime! Arnav and Ashna went all quiet! :) It takes time for kids to open up!
Came back home, chatted away to glory. Catching up and watched some TV before heading to bed.

Next morning I was up at 530 AM! We had decided the night before to go catch the sunrise. The beach is just behind the house and my aunt's mom from India had specifically asked me to do this for her! :)
So my aunt and myself took off to the beach for a nice walk by the bay! :) BEachhh!! :) We were off for about half an hour. We know the sun had risen as we could see the bright rays, but it was rising behind the clouds that we were rising along with the sun! :) But its all good. I love the beach, the sound of the waves hitting the beach! I was happy! Came back home and.... went back to bedd!!! Wanted to sleep for an hour and ended up sleeping for 3!

Later that morning went to buy a few things that I needed and saw some tankini's!!! Yippee... shopping time! Spent some time at the mall and back we came. Kids came back home and we all got ready and waited for uncle to get back! He came home, got ready and off we were to show Rhea around! :)
First stop, Sydney Opera housE! Not before crossing the harbour bridge of coursE!
I have to go walk on that bridge! You're allowed to go up as well! For a fee :)
Circular Quay is right by the Opera house. A place with restaurants and people scattered all over! People there for a drink after work, or just before going to the Opera. People all dressed up and chilled out just hanging out there.. ITs a nice place. WE took a few pictures and decided to go to the Darling Harbour to go get some food. The kids were getting hungry! WE all managed to eat and head out for a walk. It was lovely! The atmosphere I mean. Bars and restaurants on the harbour. What a brilliant place to go and chill out. People reading, sitting doing nothing, roller blading, out for a drink or a walk. I could soo imagine being back at college. Places next to the river, specially the Mailbox area, just minus the cold! :)
Walking back over the Darling bridge all I could think about was how cool and easy it would be for me to live here! How convenient! I would love to be living in Australia!
I told myself I would give it a few days before I jump to that thoughT! But I think I might seriously consider it!

Back home, everyone tired and I'm off to my book and bed!
Singing off with lots of love!

Diwali it wasss!!! :D

Its been 6 years now since I've celebrated Diwali the good old way.
Being out, one doesn't have the same charm as being back here in India for Diwali.
Its the season for fun, frolic something new... lots of lights, noise, love and everything that goes with it! :)
I don't think I've ever wanted to celebrate so much.
From late night cleaning to early morning cleaning, to getting the house ready, bright all decked up with flowers and rangoli!!
Of course my favorite part is making the feet marks entering the house.
You have to show laxmi the way in.. :D
After a good morning of cleaning... Then comes the entertaining... We weren't that well equipped this time round... but it was nice.
Seeing people we haven't seen in a while.
The evening came... Running around doing the last minute preparations before we sat down for the pooja and the aarti.
After which.... of course the lighting of a few sparklers...! We've not been into too many fire crackers for some time now...
After which.. the rounds with the neighbours... the "helloooo its been ever soo long :)"
Its nice that even though we don't manage to see each other... this festival manages to bridge all gaps... and make it seem like nothing changed.
Whether its people pretending or facts.. I don't know. As long as the feeling everywhere on this day, is good :D
Then we hoped into the car and went to my uncle's house.
It was nice... Both my uncle and his wife and kids, and My aunt (mom's sister) with Her husband were over.
It was a very nice evening spent. We ate dinner and then went out to burst fire crackers..!
There were two boxes FUULLLL!!!
I stuck to a sparkler and an annar... Which was good enough for me to enjoy. The rest I sat back and enjoyed the show as my uncle and cousins were running around bursting all the crackers! :)
MY little cousins were soo smart.. one of them... took the crackers.. hid some behind the bush.. so that everyone is done with their share... he still had some more.. He was hustling! :)
Too cute.. Just sitting there outside the house... Making a beautiful sight made me soo happy and calm inside!
Sitting and chatting with family... screaming every two seconds to make sure that the kids don't hurt themselves or so something silly. :)
IT was just great to be doing that.
Watching the starlit sky and the roads... Just bliss...
Being with family.. Having that feeling of being home with everyone again... Was lovely...
Got back home... And of course was looking forward to the sleepless night :D
Have to be up to keep the diya alive all night long.
Anyhow... All said and done.. I was very happy this Diwali...
Here's wishing you all a very very happy Diwali... Wishes for a fantastic and prosperous new year!

State of mind... Happy ! :)

Things are soo hap hazard...
Life is going on soo fast you can't think straight...
Feeling all these emotions at the same time, one doesn't know what to make...
But then you stop and think...
Right here! Right now... What is it I'm feeling?
It could be anger, love, hate, joy, sadness, happiness...
Its a choice we make. A choice to feel how we want to feel...
I have decided... No matter what... feel what you have to feel in the moment.. But the rest of the time... I WILL FEEL HAPPY :D
I have enough to be happy about.
God has been ever so kind to keep blessing me...
Great family, a life with no complains...
Everything that I go through I go through for a reason...
Its the path I choose to walk on... As its the path that was chosen for me...
Going with the flow is great, but one has to be sure that you're still in control!
I am happy...
I wish everyone else to be happy too!!
I don't know whether its the festive season or a change in me bringing this out.
Whatever it might be I'm happy! :)