The Present* : Part 1

You came into my life,
When I needed you the most.
You stoood right by my side,
Even though I was lost.

You never gave up hope,
Even though the light was dim.

Where we started where we are,
I can't let it sink in.
How well we managed this far,
Is hard for me to pin.

All I know is that you came in,
And made such a place for yourself.
Here's to soo much more ahead,
For us to enjoy in good health!
:)

The past...!

Its truly strange...
Something I just can't get my head around...
One's life is going soo great...
One is happy... over the moon rather...
Things are going well in every aspect of life...
There are no regrets whatsoever...
Then why is it that we tend to go back to thinking and living in the past in our minds?
Why is it that we feel the need to think about the times we are trying to forget...
Even if the thoughts manage to creep in for a split second.. before you dismiss them...
What is the need for the thoughts to even creep in...

I guess we remember things for a reason.. I really don't know what the reasons are..but anyhow.. felt like penning this down!

OnE* Thank you!

I come and go,
To and fro,
There you are,
Right where I left you!

It seems like we're one,
No matter what,
How much time apart,
We still pick up at the place where we had begun.

Its been soo many years,
We kinda lost track,
But I still remember meeting you,
As though it was yesterday, not such a while back.

We influenced our lives so,
I never thought it would ever last,
But how through thick and thin,
We managed to share something people rarely can cast.

I thank you for being a part of my life,
One I can never replace,
Know that you're my priority,
And I better be the same ;)

People come and people go,
But I for one am sure,
When I need you you'll be there,
The same way I stand here for you, with the same feelings we share.

Once more!?!? Unreal!

The next morning we got up ... lazed around... had breakfast... ALO KA PARATHA...MAn how much better can this get :)
hehehehe
catching up, getting ready, eating breakfast.

Finally we decided to head out for a bit. Tanmay and I took off with a couple of his friends for a drive.
We were heading out to Taraunga but the weather really wasn't good. It was spitting as well so we decided to go a place called Mount Maunganui. Its a nice little place with nice beaches around. But there was no sun. It was grey, windy and cold!
The beaches and the sights were gorgeous but it was freezing cold by my standards!

On our way there.. WE stopped at hobbiton for a coffee and muffin! :D
Its where lord of the rings was shot. I didn't want to go in and have a look at the little houses. Its all private property. Its basically a drive through all other people's property! I was happy to be there in the open fields sitting with friends and enjoying my hot choco!

By the time we came back it was getting to be a bit past 8 I think. We had to drop off the friends and go catch up with Tan's parents at one of their friends houses.
I walked in and it was as though I was someone they were waiting for and knew!
Everyone seemed to know me! :) IT was such a nice and warm welcome! It was lovely. It was an enjoyable evening at their house which wrapped up early. Reasonably!
Then Tan and Sam and myself went to Sam's house for a bit. Caught up and then Tan and I retired for the day.
By that I mean came home and caught up.. again! :)

The nest day.. did a few things with the family and then headed off to Auckland after lunch. We had to be back to attend a friends haldi ceremony.
I'm here all the way in NZ travelling from place to place.. and then I have to attend this wedding :D
Poor aunty went crazy tyring to look for things for Me! :)
Oh well its been fun. Meeting all of Tans friends was good. Again felt right at home. I know and have heard about all of them. Its putting the faces to the names and the names to the stories now :) ;)

*rEuNiTeD*

As I land... the weather is not the best.. but that's not what I can think of.
All I can think of is about the great time I had in Aussie and the blast I'm gonna have ahead.. and Tanmay waiting at the airport!!

Got out... the quickest immigrations ever... waited for my bags... walked out and there he was... My Tanny boy.. waiting for me to get out... we both looked at each other and laughed with disbelief!! One big hug and another laugh... Was this really happening... Am I really there?? Something we've spoken about forever more!
Changed some money and headed off to the car.

I had lost my voice as I was seriously ill and had a really really bad ear ache.. but none of that seemed to matter all of a sudden. There was soo much to tell, soo much to talk about.. What ever little I could I was managing to talk.. Catching up.. laughing, thinking we're in Delhi not in new Zealand! LOL
We decided to drive straight to Hamilton to go see mom and dad. It just wouldn't be right if I didn't see them as I landed.

Chatted all the way. Where the time went I have no clue. The drive was soo scenic.. But I think my mind was more in catching up. We made a small pit stop to meet one of Tan's friends. Sam! :) Then we were headed off for home...!
Got out of the car.. wanting to run towards the front.. calmly I made way till the time I saw aunty. I jumped and sprinted the rest of the way.
The hug that I've been waiting for forever more...! I just stood there hugging aunty for some time.. I don't know how long it was.. but at that time it didn't matter...
Then came my Max baby... My god how they grow.. I could just remember him about 7 years ago.. running out of his house screaming "rhea didi" all excited that I was there...
Last but not the least.. DAD!
Tanmay's dad has always been my dad... :) I feel like I have more right on him at times.. hehehe
One big hug and words acknowledging how happy we both are to be standing right there!

Its dinner time... I get greeted with two different chicken starters!!!
I'm being totally pampered... We're all catching up, all we want to do is hug each other and sit!! :D
After the two different chicken dishes its time for proper dinner. It was the first proper home cooked meal in days! It was awesome. Chicken, roti, alo, salad. Just perfect!
Finished dinner and decided to see a few video's of when They had gone to Shanghai. Tanmay and myself hadn't seen these. While we were watching these. more pampering. Dad decided to give all us kids a head massage! Champi time!!! That was sooo good! :D I almost fell asleep!
by this time I was coughing like a maniac and had almost lost my voice but that didn't stop up from catching up till 1 in the night. That's when everyone decided to hit the bed.
But of course Tan and I had still our bit of catching up to do!
WE went on for another hour after which my throat had given in. So at 2 in the morning was the wrap of the first evening I was there!

Khudi ko kar buland itna!

This is one of my favorite songs by the group 'junoon'.
This happens to be what's on my mind right now...
So penning it down!

Khudi ko kar buland itna,
Ke har takdeer se pehla,
Khuda bande se khud pooche,
Bata, teri raza kya hai?

Sitaron se aage jahan,
Aur bhi hai!
Abhi ishq ke imtehan,
Aur bhi hai!

Tu shahen hai,
Parvaz hai,
Khwab tera kaam mera,
Tere samne aasma aur bhi hai..
Basera kar, Pahadon ki chattanon par
Bata, teri raza kya hai?

Zindagi main maine aaj tak aise hi kaam kiye hai ki koi mujhe mudh kar kuch bol na sake... IE.. I have always lived my life and done things in a way that no one can point a finger at me.
I only have the mighty being to look up to and answer to and for him my slate is clean.
I don't know what's happening with me and my moods... :D
But there are too many feelings going on inside my heart and head and every other part of my body that might be able to think.. LOL
so I guess slowly writing it all out one by one will help?? Maybe!! :)

This one is for me...

This blog is solely for me.. cause I needed to just get a few things off my mind and heart!
Things just work is such strange ways... things are SO emotional and clinical at times...
Different people, different approaches... Different reactions...
Some strange way... life fits.. and some strange ways its waiting to be fixed!
Life anyway is a puzzle.. which we are trying to fit together..
So why fuss about it... when we can sort it all out...
Eventually.. it all has to fit in anyway... There is only one way it fits...
Remember.. Its a picture cut up into pieces so it HAS to fit back in the same way...
Sometimes it seems like there is no way that it will fit through...
But it will.. One has to be calm and patient and slowly try to figure things out...
Being impatient is not going to help anything or anyone...
Life is good, god is great, and things are fabulous.. its just the small trivial things that gets one wondering at times.
Why is there no easy route.. Maybe life would just be soo dull if there was...
Another day, the sun is shining bright... What I am doing inside...
Later GAtor!

singing...

singing in the rain...
just singing in the rain...
what a glorious feel cause i'm happy again...

i am happy... its funny how many times i've written about it! i am glad i've done that...
its not good to always write about worries and sadness...

i am questioning where i am in life though :D
strange that its really not bothering me as of right now. on a normal day i'd be worried sick.
but i'm on holiday right now ... and just felt like penning down my carefreeness!

its a bright sunny day,
what more can i say,
i'm on a holiday,
loving it in everyway!

life is being so kind,
keeping my trip in mind,
i'm flashing away to glory,
trying to save every moment in my mind!