Things...

movies with you...
endless chats...
random arguments...
you knowing how to tick me off...
you knowing how to make me ok...
dancing around like crazy...
listening to music...
random drives and dinners every now and then...
you holding my hand while driving and changing gears...
the little things that you always knew...
your want to see me...
your want to know me...
our hopes and dreams...
our hugs...
our kisses...
our time...
us...

... I miss...

We fit...

Your hand and mine...
Your arms, around me...
Your shoulder and my head...
Your embrace and my comfort...
Your understanding and my gaze...
Your hug and my safe place...
Your lips and mine...
Your eyes and mine...

... We fit ...


Before I say it... You know...
Before I think it... You know...
Before I feel it... You know...

You made me... See...
You made me... Be...
You made me... Feel...
You made me... Me...

Love vs. Fear

In life, we learn as we grow... Rather as the years pass, as the experiences and interactions increase...
Life happens, life and time teach. Blessed are those who see and learn along the way, and blessed are those too who need to keep going through experiences to make their journey worth the while.

One of the most recent realizations for me, which I always knew, but actually executed very recently is knowing that all decisions made are made out of either fear or love... each and every action of ours can be connected to either of these emotions. 

The decision and choices we make out of fear are not wrong... just differently driven... But once you realize that the choices driven by love are FAR stronger and have a much higher, positive impact, you wonder why the hell you were driven by fear in the first place. 

We need to do things in life that make US happy. Its easier said that done, but it needs to be done. Not to mean that we need to be selfish, but, selfless with maybe some 'me' time would work better :)

A very recent switch in my thinking made me realize this. When I stopped being fearful of silly things, or worrying and over thinking things... I noticed that in the moment, I make all my decisions and choices out of love. And it made me happier. Which in turn, made everyone else happier too. Spreading smiles, hugs, happiness is what we should all want to do at all times. The world will be a happier a place, and so will your own space. 

Fear can become like a beast... an inner beast we all have, need to acknowledge and live with. The challenge is to live cordially with it and not let it take over. We must traverse life alongside that inner beast and come to peaceful terms with it. :)

Life is happening constantly, we all have a past, and the future will be. For now, we must learnt to live in the moment, and make sure we are conscious of our choices and decisions. Also trying to make sure they always come from love and not fear...

Love vs fear... Love wins hands down... :)

Here...

Here is where I found me...
Here is where I found you...
Here is where I understood... All that you needed me to see...
Here is where I learn...
Here is where I yearn...
Here is where I see... What life has taught me...
Here is where I come... When I need peace...
Here is where I come... To iron out any crease...
Here is where I can be... Whoever it is I want to be...
Here is where I want to be...

Because if not for here... There would be no me... 

What if... ?

I want to marry you...
Have kids with you...
Build us a house together...
Settle down and grow old with you...
Die in your arms with i'm 110 years old! 
I want a lifetime...
I say things like that and you fight the urge to run int he opposite direction...
Its okay, I understand...
I didn't, but now I do... 
You're just getting started and I've been doing this for a long time now...
Deep down, I'm there... and you're not ready yet... 
So...
I'll wait...
I'll wait and wait until you're ready...
But what if... While I'm waiting, I meet someone who is ready to give me what I want from you?

On this land, there is that what's worth living for. ~Mahmoud Darwish

This poem is so beautiful...
Its what it is... We all have this around us, the beauty, the love, the compassion and it all...
We need to take the time of day and acknowledge, appreciate, cherish, love and be happy with what all we have around...
This beautiful world and life we have of our own.


On this land, there is that what's worth living for
~ Mahmoud Darwish

There’s on this land,
what is worth living,
The recurring of April,
The smell of bread at dawn,
A woman’s amulet for men,
Aeschylus’s writings,
The beginning of love,
Grass on a stone,
Mothers standing on the thread of a flute,
and the invaders fear of memories.
There’s on this land what is worth living,
The end of September,
A lady leaving the forties
with all its apricot,
The hour of sunlight in prison,
Clouds imitating a flock of creatures,
A people’s cheers for those going up
to their doom, smiling
and the tyrants fear of songs.
There’s on this land what is worth living,
There’s on this land,
the lady of lands,
the mother of the beginnings
and of the ends.
It was called Palestine
Its name later became Palestine
My lady: I deserve,
since you’re my lady,
I deserve life.

All the love...

Life has taught me many things in the past few years...
But one thing is for sure... Never to take my loved ones for granted...
Recent events have led me to realize the amount of love that surrounds me... Not only me, every one of us.
We just need to be able to take the time and acknowledge its presence.
Just hearing about my illness I have had everyone write in or call! I'm am truly blessed to be in everyone's thoughts even.

Take the time and make sure you spend time with everyone in your life that matters.
Call and be in touch with the ones far away, make sure you write in every now and then and be updated.
Don't feel like being connect on social platforms is being in touch.
Take the extra step. Write to people, pick up that phone and call them.
Reach out and meet your friends and family who matter...
Miss them? Tell them...
Love them? Hug and kiss them...
Make sure you don't let go...

Share the love in your heart... with your family and friends... Make sure they know how you feel and be grateful for all the love and support that you have! I know I am! :)

Reach out...

Something that I have heard about only... But since I know some of my friends... and other people around, I also know that what I am going to write down, is true and needs to be heard and shared.

There are many a times in our lives when we leave people behind, move on in life etc etc... There are true friends of ours who we lost touch with, miss out on, and then life brings us to positions when we find ourselves all alone. This is when we need to realize people who are close to us and true to us and reach out to them! No matter what transpired... whether we did someone wrong or hurt them. If they mean the world to us and they understand us... we MUST reach out to them! Our friends might be upset or in a different frame... but that one action from the person who needs the help and support... Just a phone call is enough... Is all that it takes for the friends to leave the world behind and be there for you... No matter how upset I am with certain people/a certain person in my life... one call for help, just to know that we too are needed in those people's lives is all that it will take.

I know that if I were to see a name flash on my phone even... everything else will be forgiven and I'll be there for some people in my life...! Because I know them, They were my friend, I know the state they are in and how they might be feeling...
But I will not make the first move because this is also their journey and learning. That HAS to be made. The minute they set foot on that journey, they will realize the truth of it... Then they must gather the guts to just reach out... Whether one apologizes for things in the past or clears air etc is step two! Step one is to take that step and reach out! The personal/emotional path/journey that one needs to make to grow spiritually is a tough one, and walking alone on it can throw you off your path too! This is when people start behaving in strange manners to hide true feelings. Act like the others who had been influences in life previously etc... Therefore it is very important to reach out to your true friends when it is the hour of need!

Reaching out doesn't make you a weak person... or smaller in any way... If anything... it makes you stronger and better!

I don't want to ramble more... This is a thought that was passing my mind... My heart is going out to someone on my mind... I hope and pray that this post is read and understood by all and makes a difference to everyone who reads it...
And hope and pray this post is read by someone I really at some level want to reach out to, but cannot as of now...

Are you reading? Hope you are!

Jeena hai aaj... Felani hai khushi!

Aane waala aayega...
Jaane waala jayega...
Apni zindagi kaise jeena hai...
Yeh to waqt hi batayega...

Logon ka aana ya jaana...
Zindagi ki seekho ke liye hai ek seedi...
Hum kya karte hai, kaise karte hai...
Woh dekhna hai zyada zaroori...

Kal jo beet gaya hai, usse jaane do...
Kal jo aana hai, usse aane do...
Agar aaj main tum na jiye...
Sab bekaar ho jayega, phir sab jaane do...

Zindagi deti hai hume bahut ishare...
Samajhdar ho to woh ban jaye humare sahare...
Aapne aage peeche dekho...
Kitna pyaar hai humare aaju baaju, usse seekho...

Main roz upar waale ke samne sar jhukati hun...
Mujhe itna kuch diya aur sikhaya...
Zindagi jeena dikhaya...
Usse zyada main aur kya chahti hun...

Aage peeche hain mere chahne waale...
Mera kaam hai bas itna sa...
Sab main bhala hi dekhu...
Sabka bhala chahun... Aur khushiyan felati jaun...
Bas khushiyan felati jaun...
Bas khushiyan felati jaun...