Just like riding a bike... :)

Drawing and painting is something that once you learn it... You can't seem to forget...
Its like riding a bike. You think you might have forgotten, but once you get down to it... it all just comes rushing back to you.
I keep scribbling and painting off and on, but when I look back at some of the work I've done over the years, I really wonder how I did it and if I'd be able to do it over again... Rest assured when you start you know you can do it and so much more... As long as you're not afraid of it, or messing it up, you can manage to create wonders...

Once you're halfway there and you know things are coming out the way you want them to, there is a smile on your face and half the battle is already won! :)
When you finish it, you need to feel like you've finished it... and you know when its done. It gives you a happiness that only you know of. Over and above that if you have people admiring your work, its like the icing on the cake. There is no better feeling than knowing your work is being appreciated for your vision on paper. Writing and painting/sketching needs to reach out in a certain manner. If that happens, you've been successful.

This is random, but since I'm managing to make time for doing this again, and its bringing me joy, I'd like to share! :)

Forced Isolation...

Its a funny thing, most people think I'm the kind of person who always has people around me... Which in most cases I do, but when I manage times away and alone, for work or myself... It is so hard for people to understand why or how.

I truly believe that one needs time with themselves to see their lives from a different point of view, see where they stand, what changes they'd like to make... etc etc

My times away have always given me the time and space to disconnect, with most of the world really... Introspection, thoughts on myself, my life, my surroundings... Meditation... Liberation...

Feeling and emoting the difference! :) love and joy to all!

Blessed yet broken...

Blessed... Yet broken...
What is this feeling inside?
I have it all around me, yet the one thing I want the most, is lost...
The more I look around, the more I see it, the more I know I don't have it.
I don't deny, that it's there... But one needs to feel it from time to time if not always...
I know life has been hard, harder than expected, but the least we can do is spread the love...
That doesn't take much does it...

One hug is all I need to face the world...
A few soft words is all I need to keep me strong...
Cuddles and a loving wake up call can make me prove the world wrong...

You are my biggest strength and my biggest weakness...
I don't have it in me to be okay around you...
Distance does us wonders, no matter how bad that sounds.
I don't doubt your love or your efforts, it just works differently for others...
I'm loosing my mind, just because you and I are breaking....
How long do I continue faking?
All its doing is making us drift apart....
And I don't have it in my heart... To be selfish and hurt you for my happiness...
So, I'd much rather stay this way...
Cry my tears away, in my solitude...
And hope and pray for a new start for the both of us...

Here's wishing you the peace and quiet you so desperately need...
And here's wishing me my life, which I so desperately miss...

Bless yet broken is the feeling inside...
Contradictory in nature is that line... But contradiction is becoming the story of my life...

A little bit about me! :0)

However silly this one may sound, its something that has been going on in my head for a while now and just had to come out! So here goes :)

It's that time of year when we feel a little bit older and wiser! I don't know how I'm feeling right now in life but, I know that I'm feeling something. Older and wiser, always ;) there is a reason that I'm called the granny of the group! But now I just think its time for me to do things for ME! At first its sounds selfish, but then I look in, and around and see that without me being a little selfish, I'm loosing myself. Need I do things in a certain manner since that's how the world thinks it should be done? I've always done what I felt right so what is different this time? Why am I not being able to cut the chord? I know why... It is because I've been in a different place, following the trend for way too long! I'm not scared of what life holds! I aspire for bigger and better things in life, all aspects of my life! I was a happy free bird because of my bohimean ways and I need to get back to it! That's what made me happy and in turn helped me make others happy and kept everyone happy! :)

It is the first quarter century for me this year! And I don't want to look back and regret a thing! So here's to a fresh start! Here's to me staring my next quarter century on a different note! Here's to a clean slate, soon enough :) this new quarter starts with a few heartaches and goodbyes, but I hope to have many new beginnings in the years to come!
Lord, let me be my happy chirpy self and be able to spread the joy! :)

A few lines that came to my mind, which I wanted to share! :)

Here I am, all of 25,
All these years,
that have been full of life,
Different worlds, different planes,
With me daring to be different, and living life like its a game... :)
I realised that life has so much to it,
The love, joy, happiness and pain,
Without which we have nothing to gain!
We take the best and leave the rest,
That's what will make us the few amongst the best...
It's upto us,
To keep it moving,
To keep ourselves and everyone else going!
How we do it, and know that we will live through it,
Then there is nothing to fear, since we will all be here,
Together, there for each other, through the good times and the bad!
All of 25,
And looking for new beginnins,
Here's to you and me and the bright blue sea, as that's exactly where I want to be ;)

PS: love u all and thank u for baring this note! Just wanted to say that I'm very grateful to have u in my life! My 25 years would have never been the same without you!

To the new year...

So the thing is... that I feel like its time to set out on a new path... The path I'm on at the moment is just too easy... Life is not about it being easy... Its hectic, but easy. There is a difference...

For me, I hope for a year full of happiness, smiles and most of all, love... A recent vsisit from my cousins made me realise how much I love to love and love being loved :) Emotional child that I am... So my wish to all will be for health wealth and all...but most of all it goes out for LOVE! :)

Here's to a year full of love and freedom! :) xox

Just a thought!

Just wanted to pen down a random thought...

HOW MUCH DO I THINK! :) lol!

I just realised that I think so much, and when it comes to me penning down my thoughts... I can go on and on and on... Its never a short thought... LOL

I wrote to someone over the weekend, needed to get something off my chest... and its only today that I realised that I sent a LONG ASS email... then I thought back to all the times I wrote to someone and had something to say... and realised I always have lots to say :) (say, write, sing, scream... lol you name it! this is why I think the picture I have used is so right for this :))

God bless all of my mates and family and others for having the patience to deal with me and all that I have to say and listening and understanding more than anything :)

And to anyone else who bares and read all that I have to write :)

Kudos!

Appreciation...

It is such a good thing... Makes you feel like you are something and are capable of something...

There are always 2 ways of making a point... The positive way and the blah way...

Its just the way the you are that makes such a difference...

The can-do attitude helps no matter how old and boring and painful that may sound.

Yes be pessimistic to a certain level or always balance things out... But just be nice! :)

Appreciation and encouragement I believe play a big part in making us who we are and making us better people!

From a simple loving wake up call instead of a scream or shout out of bed!

To being told you were missed one day... Knowing that you're being thought of... You're on someones mind...

To have someone concerned for you and you for someone else...

Forms such a support system for one without even knowing it...!!!

Another thing... perfectly enough a really nice song has just come on...

Yeh Tumhari Meri Baatein from the movie Rock On!

Thinking of this song on a bigger scale... Apart from the relationship angle... :)

Just so happy! That's how we should be :)

Bas, now that all from me for now! :) xox

Careless, Carefree Catch up sessions!

Careless carefree catch up sessions...

They are just the thing that is needed from time to time! :)

Endless hours of gabbing to glory...

Most making some sense, some not...

Laughing uncontrollably at the silliest of things...

Laughing at your own self and your shortcomings...

Laughing at life and its ways, good or bad...

Forgetting the world and living in the moment...

In the hope of reliving this as a memory in the future...

Realising who is yours...

Realising a lot about you...

Learning new things...

Learning new things about your own wants...

Putting a finger on what it is you've been thinking of or trying to figure out about yourself lately...

Oh what joy... little joys of life that make us 'us'...

Make us remember what we're forgetting...

Trying to make something of our lives...

But forgetting what makes us 'us' in the bargain!

I recommend it to all... Time to yourself...

Time with yourself...

Time with people you connect with...

Time with people you love! Its just what is needed to put things back in perspective...

:)

Staring out the window...

So here I am... at work, trying to get things done, taking it a little slower than normal... Staring out the window on my left... Totally BLANK! I look at the grey sky... and the buildings around... and I can't seem to think of a thing...

I feel totally numb... Don't really know why... but I feel the need to just be curled up in my blanket with a book or crying to make myself get over with emotions and just get back to normal...

I look back at times and see myself in happier times... and wonder what was so different then...

Is this what life is about now? Is this what being a grown up means? Is this what we work for? To go to bed at night and wonder where the thrill in my day was? This is not me... This is not what I want...

How do I get that back is the question... That's a journey that I'm taking and will get to the destination only when I'm destined to...

That's why I wonder why we don't have a heads up to life sometimes... :) I just need something to look forward to ... Something I know will make my day better no matter what...

Just as we think we're getting into a comfortable zone... Poof, the cloud of smoke comes up and you realise that its not true. If only it were THAT easy :)

ANyhow, its time for me to snap back into reality... a new reality to me... Not my reality... Not where I really want to be... back to being carefree... BEing myself, being there for others the way I was... The same me who was in touch with everyone and crazy enough to not care about anything when I wanted to talk to someone, see them or just surprise them :)

Well as anyone else would, I wait and see where, when and how I get there... :)

This is me, off for now!

Is it me??

The feeling is the same... Every time around...

When you start feeling like you're there...

It is the world that moves... the shaking ground...

If only sometimes you knew why things happened...

If only sometimes we could do things so...

So that a new phase of life gets started and you know...

Or at least think you know where to go!

Why does it take so long...

Why does the world seem so wrong...

All one really wants is to be happy and be able to share the same with someone...

I have it all here by the looks of things...

Nothing to be afraid of...

Nothing to want more...

It all seems just right...

And yet it doesn't feel so....

How do I know when I'm happy? How do I know when I think its okay...

Is life just a big fat lie, so is it a mountain of hay?

I try so hard to say its okay...

I try so hard to feel that way...

What is it that makes me wonder so much...

What is it that keeps me here...

Why was it that I came back...

Why was it that I lost track...

Some answers I will never get...

But a life that I need to set...

Lord give me the strenghth to be myself...

Give my the will to find my own...

Help me make me and make my happy...

That's all I ask for in a small sort of way...

With all the love around me...

With all the love that surrounds me...

With all the love that I have to give...

Happiness is a small ball of string that I need to play with...