Looking around

I look around, what is it I see...
The world the way I want it to be.
Smiles, love, compassion, gratitude and more...
All of what I want and need.

But life has its ways to test us all,
To push us enough, to make us fall.
So what is it that one must do,
To constantly remember to not change our view?

Remind ourselves to stand again,
Put on a smile and get back in the game.
Along with joy, there will always be sorrow.
Just know that there will be a brighter tomorrow.

No matter what tomorrow holds,
Don't stop, just try and be bold.
That one little step today,
You know will take you a long long way!

I feel...

For once in my life…

… I leave worry behind.

… I truly go with the flow.

… I’m not scared.

… I don’t worry about tomorrow.

… I know something is going right.

… I feel needed.

… I know I’m missed.

… I know the meaning of aching for someone.

… I feel taken care of.

… I feel thought of.

… I feel alive.

… I feel.

Smile

Its one of those days, when I've been thinking back over the last seven or eight years. Going through my photos on Facebook, trying to feel something about the journey I've made.

The one thing that has been constant, has been me smiling.

Smiling through all experiences.
Smiling through all my travels.
Smiling through all the times spent with loved ones... and others.
Smiling through the misunderstandings.
Smiling through the mistakes.
Smiling in success and in failure.
Smiling with family and friends.
Smiling no matter what the situation.
Smiling no matter what the emotion it was that I really felt.
Smiling through the sorrows along with the joys.
Smiling cause its all that I could really do.

But through it all, when I look back today... It is the one thing that stayed, didn't changed and no matter how hard I thought it was at that time, it is the one thing that pulled me through. Gave me more strength than I could imagine.

Smile through it all... Celebrate life and try not to pay heed to anything that gets you down. Its hard, but it helps... and try to be there, smiling for others, for everyone has an ongoing battle of their own.

Smile through it all... 

Logic and Emotion

So, I haven't really written in a long time, but there are certain things in my head that need to make their way out. Not sure how it helps, or even if it makes for a good read, but I guess I need to just get some thoughts out of my system.

Sometimes, life takes its own path... You feel like you're in control, but really, deep down, you know that the things happening around, the pace and everything is just, happening. You're merely 'going with the flow'. Not 'consciously' going with the flow... But just flowing.

Recently, I've made some changes to my life. I believe that they are for the best. I know that the changes I made were needed. Long over due rather. And finally, that I got the courage to do what I had to, and there was a HUGE change in energies around me. All around me. In the silliest and most amazing ways.

Normally, with everything in life, I am driving by emotion, but logic plays a huge factor and does prevail most times. Logic is good to have. I've been hearing that a lot lately. But when it comes to two people, I believe it can't be logical. Two people never fit 100%, logic doesn't always prevail when it comes to two people, their thoughts and emotions. Logically examined and thought through relationships cannot sustain themselves. There has to be a different factor driving it. Love! Love, as an emotion, is never really logical. Having said that, even if not a 100%, sometimes, somethings just fit. And not having an explanation for it, isn't such a bad thing.

I really needed a reminder of who I really am/was, and I recently got one in the most amazing manner.  I had kinda forgotten along the way over the past year and a half.

And now, I can't help but wonder about a few things...

What does one do when...

... You meet someone who reminds you so much of yourself.
... You know you're so different from each other, yet so alike.
... You know that there is something inexplainable in that bond.
... You feel an intense acceleration in 'your' evolution. Whether or not you want it.
... You feel like there was a purpose behind this crossing of paths.
... You have an eternal sense of knowing. Mind, body and soul.
... You feel like there is something unspeakably familiar and beautiful in your hearts.
... You have overly obnoxious levels of comfort in any and every sense.
... You feel peace and/or chaos at the same time.
... You know it wont be easy, but you seem to think it will be worth it.

What does one do...?

My best bet would be to go with the flow, be in the moment, no matter how hard it is to do that, and take it a step at a time. Logic tells me that! But really, everything is being driven by emotion... Right? :)

In the moment

I never thought I'd see this day,

Never thought I'd have to be this brave.

But now the time has come, 

To let go of the past and bring in some fun. 

Time to be thinking for me, 

Time to set me free. 

Its all about when and how, 

Life goes on, start living it now. 

Just remember, to always toast to good health

And always aways be honest with yourself.

Change, the need to embrace it with love.

It is amazing how unknown territory can really scare a person. But I suppose this is what meditation, yoga, reiki, chanting etc are trying to teach us. How not to get affected. Try and be centred through it all. Everything we do, everyone we meet, all the thoughts in our head, every moment that passes by, is a new chance, a new beginning, a new way to start afresh. We can chose and decide to behave in any manner we like, as long as we are cognisant of the fact that we are making those choices and decisions with our own will and fully aware of our actions. We must be willing to deal with the consequences that follow too... That is what helps us understand ourselves better.

Looking inward is just the start... It is the beginning to a world of possibilities... If we want it to be. Technically, there is no right and wrong, there is no black and white... but we need to find our own path and have our own sense of love, compassion, direction and it all...

There was a phase in my life where I was so at peace with myself and my surroundings that there was nothing anyone, other than my mother, could say or do  to disrupt that. Its amazing how easy it is to forget our ways to keep ourself centred. Its amazing how our surrounds can affect us to such a large extent. No one ever said that an inward, spiritual journey was going to be an easy one, but the leanings along the way are fabulous. Sometimes you see it all around you, and you're so hell bent on wanting to fix a situation or trying to help someone else go through a process of their own... we forget that it is THEIR process to go through. We've made a journey in a certain manner, others have to make their journey too.

Every journey is full of changes in many ways... we need to learn to embrace change with grace. Once we master that, life becomes a whole lot better. Again, its not easy, but it the only way.
Life is meant to be lived with nothing but love, hope, happiness and compassion... If that's not happening, we need to make a change... Since change is the only constant factor in our lives, it is not that hard to bring about change... It is one of the simplest things for us to do, because we are very used to it... But what holds us back is our fears. This can being me back to my point about how everything we do is stemmed out of two emotions, love and fear.

Back to the point I wanted to make... Change. No matter how good or bad it seems to be at the time, in the long run, we always look back and appreciate it. If there is one thing that life has taught me, change is constant and needs to be embraced with love else it will break you down with all the negative emotions you can imagine.

In the hope to be able to adapt forever more... and hoping to be spreading love, happiness, compassion and joy in small ways every day if nothing else. That's what keeps me going. Bringing a smile to others faces. 

Some of the things that make me... Me

I might not be someone's first choice,
but I am a great choice.

I may not be rich,
but I am valuable.

I don't pretend to be someone I'm not,
because I'm good at being me.

I wear my heart on my sleeve and love like I'll never be hurt,
but I'm fearless and willing to do that.

I might not be proud of some of the things I've done in the past,
but I'm proud of who I am today.

I may be emotional at times,
but that is also because I'm human.

I may not be perfect,
but I also know that I don't need to be.

Purpose

Well defined...
Healthy...
Loving...
Caring...
Happy...
Fulfilling...
Peaceful
Gracious...
Blessed....

All that I want in life... my life... my families lives... and as a family together... and for my family one day...

Saying something

You won my heart,
With the silliest of things...

You made me fall in love,
With the simplest of things...

It feels like you are a part of me,
Trying to show me a little bit of me...

It is always about the little things,
And you get that about me... 

You...

... are the one who made sure you caught my attention
... are the one who made sure you left a mark
... are the one who made sure I didn't have a chance to think of anyone but you
... are the one who made sure you got all the small things right
... are the one who made me feel good about me again
... are the one who made me feel loved/cared for again
... are the one who made me know I was missed and thought of
... are the one who dared to do things you didn't have to
... are the one who didn't know what to do... because I was unplanned
... are the one who didnt know what hit you
... are the one, maybe, who bit off more than you could chew
... are the one, along with me, who didn't think we'd get here... and that scares you
... are not the only one to have been burnt in the past, yet...
... are the one who is unsure and taking your time

... are the one who does not want to acknowledge how you feel... but...
... are the one who doesn't get tired of asking me why I love you!
... are the one who is a child, and loves being one
... are the one that needs someone to take care of him

... are the one who is a wannabe meanie... cause really, you are just simple and sweet at heart...

... are the one with the big dreams...
... are the lazy ass who isn't doing anything about it...

... are the one who misses me and doesn't say it enough...
... are the one who loves me and wont say...
... and I, slowly, get to know you... and love you more...
... and I, always, miss you more... :)