I Figuered IT Out.... Quater Life Crisis!

I figured it out!!!
Actually... I recently read something that clicked in my head.
Helps me know what's going on with me right now.
All of us who are twenty something go through this. Some early some late.
The whole feeling of confusion and the unknown is but natural.

I am going to write on the same basis of what I read but make it in accordance to me.

Me starting to realise that there are many things about myself that I didn't know. So much that I can manage and bare.

The feeling of insecurity and the question of where I will be in a year or two. Its the first time in my life I do not have an answer to these questions.
Then getting scared because I barely know where I stand now.

I start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
Also, the people who you meet, the new friends may be blessings in disguise. Everyone has lives and time stops for no one. So one must be open to people and experiences.
Yes of course then there are those friends who are there no matter what. Through it all. If not physically, then in every other way.
What I didn't recognize (at that time) is that they (my friends) are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere but that they are as confused as you.

I look at my job.... 'doing nothing' :) ... Its not what I thought I would have been doing as of right now in my life.
I start looking for a job and realize that you I'm going to have to start all over again, and that sort of scares me. And the thought kind of even tires me.
I go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because I cannot seem to make a decision.

One minute, I am insecure and then the next, secure. I laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. I am going through extremes.

Yes I feel alone and scared and confused. I was made to realise that change in the enemy. There is a part of me that tried to cling onto the past. But then I know this is not the way to go. The past will keep drifting away slowly. I know I have to move forward, which I'm trying to do bit by bit. I don't really mind staying in the moment that I am in either. I know I can't for too long though.
Also the realization that change is not really the enemy... Its for the better.

I broke my own heart and wonder how I let myself get into that situation which I have avoided my whole life. I gave it thought and because of the practical logical thinking that I go by, I have learned to let go of the past and move on.
Yes I know I will love again. It might be knocking on my door just now for all I know. :)
One-night-stands and random hook-ups have never really appealed to me. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot doesn't really happen.

I worry about money, the future, what life has in store... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
Its like they say God has everything worked out for you. I don't want to know what life has in store for me, but getting a heads up sometimes doesn't hurt! :)
In my way. I wanted to prove to myself, that I'd be able to stand on my own two feet and be able to take care of myself. I did more. I managed myself, my life and took care of others. It as like running one big family. In every way.
I did it earlier than I thought I would....
But what next is what I wonder about..

Its trying to figure out the good times and the bad...

AS you can see... This 'quarter life crisis', is a good thing... I have managed to get my head straight on a lot of things... and some are yet to go.
Yes its a stage we all go through and yes its annoying being lost, but like I believe ... we go through things in life for particular reasons...
We all do... So go with it and see which path you have to be on.

We're all in the same boat.. All the twenty somethings that we are.