Midnight scribbles... :)

One of those days when there is just so much going on in my mind! :)

But the best part about it is, that me being in a happy and peaceful place with myself just helps me to look at things so much better. I really do feel blessed at times to have the thought process that I have. I have friends who make fun of me and tell me to act my age and not be ahead of my times, but I don't let that bother me. I can surly behave the same way other people at my age would normally behave, but I have been blessed enough to have been given evolved thoughts, to see a larger picture, a better picture. I chose to take the more evolved thoughts/actions instead of doing what other people do at my age. I learn from other people's mistakes and learn from their learnings too! (As much as I can! I must admit it is hard!) There are times when I pick up the negative qualities of those around me too. However, once I identify them, I am aware of them, I do what I have to do to bring myself back on course.

As for those who tell me to act my age and doubt my thought process, well, they all know that I am right, and that is what probably scares them and probes them to tell me what they do.

I have lived my life, made the most of it all, had fun, done what I wanted to do, MY way and at an early age have been fortunate to have had enough and more experiences to make me who I am today. I can chose to act like a frivolous bimbo, or be the way I am. I chose to be the way I am. I live by a few things. I make sure my conscience is clear every night I sleep. At the end of the day you have to answer to yourself and the lord above. Also, I never have regrets in my life. I recently saw something which I agree with. Never have regrets, because at some point or the other you wanted to do what you might be regretting at that moment. Never look back and regret any experience you might have had. Cherish it and learn from it, to make you a better and stronger person.

I am also asked and questioned about my feelings and how sure of them I might be. How do you explain to someone how you feel? And once you do, how do you make sure they understand how true your feelings really are? How do you make them see the purity of intent, and earnest emotions? How do you make them feel what you feel? There is no real answer for these questions you see. There is a saying which goes something like, you can only take the horse to the pond, but cannot make it drink the water. Others have their perceptions... I don't expect anyone to know, understand, believe or anything of what I'm feeling. All I can do is be true to myself and the others. The rest is up to them. :)

At the end of the day, it boils down to what I have been saying for a while now. There is always two ways of looking at a situation. Sometimes more than two ways.
You can chose to be cynical, pessimistic, doubtful etc etc... OR do it my way. Be hopeful, be happy, dream big, feel and acknowledge every emotion that passes through you and give it its proper due. :)

Be the better person, do the right thing, go after true and earnest emotions and don't question things that come your way. You will get answers in time. You never know what you're pushing away or bringing closer when you're living through times that do not make sense to you. :) Just be happy! Keep the faith and NEVER loose hope! And trust in the lord above to always guide you and keep you on the right path! :)

Okay, that's enough for one night! Shall leave you with a quote I came across.
"Your story may not have a happy beginning, but the rest of your story is who you chose to be!"
Guess where that quote came from! ;)