Things to consider.

In my view... here are a few things I think are important to be clear on before you pick your partner. You think you're ready to spend the rest of your life with someone? Found that someone to grow old with?
Make sure you ask yourself the following questions and have clear answers!

~ Faith.
Do you have faith in each other? You know that no matter what happens, this person will be standing by your side? It doesn't have to be 100%. Anything over 80% works! After all, nothing is absolute. 

~ Distance.

Are you comfortable being away from each other. Do you give each other space? You don't have trouble being away traveling with work or friends even. As long as you both know you're going to be 'home' with each other soon. You are 'home' for each other.

~ Balance.

Are you good at balancing each other out? Be the stronger one when the other is weak? By the chirpy one when the other is down? Can you balance out each other? Are you yin and yang and can you interchange as needed?

~ Sharing.

Is this the person you share everything with? Good, bad, ugly, happy, sad, important and inconsequential. This is the first person you share everything with?

~ Growing together.

We change and grow constantly in life. The challenging part is changing and growing with someone else. Is this the person you want to cherish yourself with? Change and grow with. For better or for worse?

~ Care.

Do you care for this person? More than you care for yourself? No one says we shouldn't lookout for ourselves, but is this the person you're willing to forget yourself for? In the most dramatic way, you willing to put all you have on the line for this person? 

~ Compromise.

Its something we all do at some points in our lives. Some do it more often than others. Not to say you should start something or get into something with someone with a compromise... But if the time comes at some point later in life, are you both willing to compromise? Just being willing is a good start. No matter what the situation, you need to be willing to, to make sure its got the best interests for the both of you. 

~ Choice. 

This person is your person. You picked this person. This person needs to be the one you want to come home to.... No matter how hard your day was. You know this is the person you want to have by your side at night...

Have you asked yourself these questions? Do you have clear answers? Now get talking amongst yourself and make sure you both are on the same page before you head in any direction!

Something going on in my mind, thought of sharing. Hope it helps someone, somewhere...

Head vs Heart... yet again.

Sometimes... I wonder what I'm thinking... That's the thing, maybe I'm not thinking... Maybe I am the person who just goes with a gut feel. I do try and make some sense of things in my head... But mostly I think I'm driven by my gut...

Clearly there are two kinds of people... Head vs Heart... The successful ones are those who can use both, close to equally, to make choices and decisions. But sometimes... I think you just have to go with it... Go with a feeling... No matter what the outcome. Be prepared for the worst, but hope for the best.

I think I am also hopelessly optimistic... And that also comes from my gut... When it comes from there I know I have enough to push me enough to see me through any situation... No matter how hard... How I have grown to become this person I don't know. I look back and I know I have worked really hard to be here today... But how do I translate that and use it to help things, situations and people around? Other than lead by example...? I guess patience is still a lesson that hasn't been completed with me...

One thing that I still need to get to being... patient... I think most people think I am very patient... But I know the truth of it... I still have a long way to go....

Anyway, just a rant... Needed to get it out. Currently in a point in life where I don't know exactly where everything is headed. I know where I'd like it to go, but then again... the motto has always been Que Sera Sera...

Dear person who I want to grow old with.

They say, the things we regret the most are the ones we didn't do or the things we never said. But sometimes circumstances don't allow us to say what we really need to, when we really want to. Sometimes, we have to be patient and wait for the right time... the right moment. 

I don't know when that might be, but there are a few things I need to say. So putting it out there. Here goes... 

PS: just random musings... I tend to babble in my head and out loud, hopefully getting it out clears my head up! :) 
Not directed to anyone in particular. And if it is, its for me to know and you to find out. :p Maybe not!

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Dear Person who I want to grow old with,

I know you're scared, so am I. I am know you're jaded, so am I. I know you're cynical, so am I. The difference is that I always try to see the light at the end of the tunnel as an opening, rather than a train coming at me head on. Trust me, getting myself to think of that isn't always easy... But I know if it was, it wouldn't be worth it. 

I don't know what tomorrow has in store for either of us, but I know how I feel today. If there is one thing life and experiences have taught me, is to be driven by love and not fear. I do truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Everything that doesn't happen also doesn't work because there is a greater plan of action. We must believe however, through it all. The pain, angst and all the emotions we go through when our plans don't work, are meant to teach us things we are yet to learn. Or know and don't really practice. 

I know you don't believe in this and a few more things I believe in. But that's okay. I believe enough for the both of us. 

I know the thought of 'us' scares you. Its something good. Something we both want, but are too scared to accept. I also know that I have more clarity in thought and how I feel more than you. It might be a problem of mine. Clarity of thought and emotion. Scares many away. But again, its a chance I am willing to take. 

So here are a few things I need you to know, about me, and about how I'd like us to be. 

When I'm in, I'm all in. For the long run. The good, the bad, through sickness and health yada yada yada... I'm there. No running, no walking out, no giving up. We both know this is worth fighting for, worth saving, worth having. I promise to love you, even when I hate you. We all need someone, to be able to give us that bit of strength, support, peace... A little bit of beauty or a ray of hope midst all the darkness. Just when its needed the most. 

As for hugs! I am a tree hugging hippie... But I don't think those are for nothing. They are not meant to make you feel better. They are meant to remind us of the support/pillars we have in our lives. Something or someone to fall back on. Reminders. 

I know you and I are more than what meets the eye... I know it because I feel it. I know you feel it too. However scared you might be to admit it. Yes there are times I am confused, and I don't always and won't always know what is on your mind... Which is why actions must also be accompanied with communication. Maybe not a lot, but enough to get through. 

I am right here right now. And I intend to be in case you'd like otherwise. At the risk of scaring you, I can't wait for our life to begin. We are currently getting a slight preview, not everyone is lucky enough to have, but I am sure we will make life better than we think we will, together. 

I currently have multiple universes existing, side by side... I can't wait for it to be one. 

We are both strong individuals, with aspirations and goals. We make up for each other's losses in ways we never thought we could. Together, we are stronger and better.

I know we are both in for one hellova ride... and all I can say is that I cannot wait. Bring it on :p and oh, 'Cowabunga Duddeee'!!!

I meant it when I said "bachu, you're gone". Here's the other thing which I didn't bet on... So am I. 

Yours, patiently... 
Waiting to start growing up and old with you! 

Looking around

I look around, what is it I see...
The world the way I want it to be.
Smiles, love, compassion, gratitude and more...
All of what I want and need.

But life has its ways to test us all,
To push us enough, to make us fall.
So what is it that one must do,
To constantly remember to not change our view?

Remind ourselves to stand again,
Put on a smile and get back in the game.
Along with joy, there will always be sorrow.
Just know that there will be a brighter tomorrow.

No matter what tomorrow holds,
Don't stop, just try and be bold.
That one little step today,
You know will take you a long long way!

I feel...

For once in my life…

… I leave worry behind.

… I truly go with the flow.

… I’m not scared.

… I don’t worry about tomorrow.

… I know something is going right.

… I feel needed.

… I know I’m missed.

… I know the meaning of aching for someone.

… I feel taken care of.

… I feel thought of.

… I feel alive.

… I feel.

Smile

Its one of those days, when I've been thinking back over the last seven or eight years. Going through my photos on Facebook, trying to feel something about the journey I've made.

The one thing that has been constant, has been me smiling.

Smiling through all experiences.
Smiling through all my travels.
Smiling through all the times spent with loved ones... and others.
Smiling through the misunderstandings.
Smiling through the mistakes.
Smiling in success and in failure.
Smiling with family and friends.
Smiling no matter what the situation.
Smiling no matter what the emotion it was that I really felt.
Smiling through the sorrows along with the joys.
Smiling cause its all that I could really do.

But through it all, when I look back today... It is the one thing that stayed, didn't changed and no matter how hard I thought it was at that time, it is the one thing that pulled me through. Gave me more strength than I could imagine.

Smile through it all... Celebrate life and try not to pay heed to anything that gets you down. Its hard, but it helps... and try to be there, smiling for others, for everyone has an ongoing battle of their own.

Smile through it all... 

Logic and Emotion

So, I haven't really written in a long time, but there are certain things in my head that need to make their way out. Not sure how it helps, or even if it makes for a good read, but I guess I need to just get some thoughts out of my system.

Sometimes, life takes its own path... You feel like you're in control, but really, deep down, you know that the things happening around, the pace and everything is just, happening. You're merely 'going with the flow'. Not 'consciously' going with the flow... But just flowing.

Recently, I've made some changes to my life. I believe that they are for the best. I know that the changes I made were needed. Long over due rather. And finally, that I got the courage to do what I had to, and there was a HUGE change in energies around me. All around me. In the silliest and most amazing ways.

Normally, with everything in life, I am driving by emotion, but logic plays a huge factor and does prevail most times. Logic is good to have. I've been hearing that a lot lately. But when it comes to two people, I believe it can't be logical. Two people never fit 100%, logic doesn't always prevail when it comes to two people, their thoughts and emotions. Logically examined and thought through relationships cannot sustain themselves. There has to be a different factor driving it. Love! Love, as an emotion, is never really logical. Having said that, even if not a 100%, sometimes, somethings just fit. And not having an explanation for it, isn't such a bad thing.

I really needed a reminder of who I really am/was, and I recently got one in the most amazing manner.  I had kinda forgotten along the way over the past year and a half.

And now, I can't help but wonder about a few things...

What does one do when...

... You meet someone who reminds you so much of yourself.
... You know you're so different from each other, yet so alike.
... You know that there is something inexplainable in that bond.
... You feel an intense acceleration in 'your' evolution. Whether or not you want it.
... You feel like there was a purpose behind this crossing of paths.
... You have an eternal sense of knowing. Mind, body and soul.
... You feel like there is something unspeakably familiar and beautiful in your hearts.
... You have overly obnoxious levels of comfort in any and every sense.
... You feel peace and/or chaos at the same time.
... You know it wont be easy, but you seem to think it will be worth it.

What does one do...?

My best bet would be to go with the flow, be in the moment, no matter how hard it is to do that, and take it a step at a time. Logic tells me that! But really, everything is being driven by emotion... Right? :)

In the moment

I never thought I'd see this day,

Never thought I'd have to be this brave.

But now the time has come, 

To let go of the past and bring in some fun. 

Time to be thinking for me, 

Time to set me free. 

Its all about when and how, 

Life goes on, start living it now. 

Just remember, to always toast to good health

And always aways be honest with yourself.