Dear person who I want to grow old with.

They say, the things we regret the most are the ones we didn't do or the things we never said. But sometimes circumstances don't allow us to say what we really need to, when we really want to. Sometimes, we have to be patient and wait for the right time... the right moment. 

I don't know when that might be, but there are a few things I need to say. So putting it out there. Here goes... 

PS: just random musings... I tend to babble in my head and out loud, hopefully getting it out clears my head up! :) 
Not directed to anyone in particular. And if it is, its for me to know and you to find out. :p Maybe not!

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Dear Person who I want to grow old with,

I know you're scared, so am I. I am know you're jaded, so am I. I know you're cynical, so am I. The difference is that I always try to see the light at the end of the tunnel as an opening, rather than a train coming at me head on. Trust me, getting myself to think of that isn't always easy... But I know if it was, it wouldn't be worth it. 

I don't know what tomorrow has in store for either of us, but I know how I feel today. If there is one thing life and experiences have taught me, is to be driven by love and not fear. I do truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Everything that doesn't happen also doesn't work because there is a greater plan of action. We must believe however, through it all. The pain, angst and all the emotions we go through when our plans don't work, are meant to teach us things we are yet to learn. Or know and don't really practice. 

I know you don't believe in this and a few more things I believe in. But that's okay. I believe enough for the both of us. 

I know the thought of 'us' scares you. Its something good. Something we both want, but are too scared to accept. I also know that I have more clarity in thought and how I feel more than you. It might be a problem of mine. Clarity of thought and emotion. Scares many away. But again, its a chance I am willing to take. 

So here are a few things I need you to know, about me, and about how I'd like us to be. 

When I'm in, I'm all in. For the long run. The good, the bad, through sickness and health yada yada yada... I'm there. No running, no walking out, no giving up. We both know this is worth fighting for, worth saving, worth having. I promise to love you, even when I hate you. We all need someone, to be able to give us that bit of strength, support, peace... A little bit of beauty or a ray of hope midst all the darkness. Just when its needed the most. 

As for hugs! I am a tree hugging hippie... But I don't think those are for nothing. They are not meant to make you feel better. They are meant to remind us of the support/pillars we have in our lives. Something or someone to fall back on. Reminders. 

I know you and I are more than what meets the eye... I know it because I feel it. I know you feel it too. However scared you might be to admit it. Yes there are times I am confused, and I don't always and won't always know what is on your mind... Which is why actions must also be accompanied with communication. Maybe not a lot, but enough to get through. 

I am right here right now. And I intend to be in case you'd like otherwise. At the risk of scaring you, I can't wait for our life to begin. We are currently getting a slight preview, not everyone is lucky enough to have, but I am sure we will make life better than we think we will, together. 

I currently have multiple universes existing, side by side... I can't wait for it to be one. 

We are both strong individuals, with aspirations and goals. We make up for each other's losses in ways we never thought we could. Together, we are stronger and better.

I know we are both in for one hellova ride... and all I can say is that I cannot wait. Bring it on :p and oh, 'Cowabunga Duddeee'!!!

I meant it when I said "bachu, you're gone". Here's the other thing which I didn't bet on... So am I. 

Yours, patiently... 
Waiting to start growing up and old with you!